divorce, secondchances, starting a new life

I look back and try to remember

I sit in this court room and I stare at you straight in the eyes as your  sitting in front of  that judge saying flat-out lies about me in order to get you to gain full custody off our son.  As I'm hearing him say the words bad mother and I leave him alone all… Continue reading I look back and try to remember

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Where am I now……

    I thought about starting a new blog as I start my new life, but this blog is where I started writing when I was going thru my husbands first affair and the pain that came with it. My way of dealing with life back then was to numb myself with any drug I… Continue reading Where am I now……

Addiction, drugs, Recovery, secondchances, starting a new life, starting over

I Trusted my journey

I When I got married 15 years ago, I was the happiest person in the world to have met the most loving kind , great listener, affectionate man I had ever met. I knew he was the one.. I remember the feeling I remember the day I felt it, I remember feeling so safe with… Continue reading I Trusted my journey

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An apology Letter I cam across that I should have wrote for my own kids

I am sorry we failed. I will forever feel guilty that we broke your home and world apart. I know it’s ultimately for the best, but I know, and you have explicitly told me, that you would rather us all live together with some tension than separately tension-free. You don’t know that I was no… Continue reading An apology Letter I cam across that I should have wrote for my own kids

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Taking away the only world they knew

I came across this story that some else wrote and  it was So powerful to me because I Felt all these same feeling when my marriage ended 3 years ago. I still feel them with my kids and yet I don’t think I have ever told them I’m sorry.  My daighter is 22 and my… Continue reading Taking away the only world they knew

Addiction, Recovery

My Goodbye letter To What I loved the most and what took everything my soul was.

I remember the day I met you. It was love at first sight. The way you looked at me through your sparkly eyes, it was a look that I had never seen before. When we touched lips, I began to feel your love for me run down my throat and through my veins until I… Continue reading My Goodbye letter To What I loved the most and what took everything my soul was.